My name is Theresa Borawski and I have been blessed with a miracle! I have lost 275 pounds, without surgery or fad diets, and went from a wheelchair to a treadmill! This is my story! To read more about my miracle, visit my website: www.theresaborawski.net and/or join my Facebook group: WE CAN CHANGE OUR LIVES!
Friday, September 27, 2013
That Green-Eyed Monster
Have you ever encountered that “green-eyed monster” called
jealousy or envy?I have, plenty of
times; in fact, more times that I want to admit. This ‘deadly sin”, as it was
called by the dear nuns who taught me in school, can literally rob a person of
joy and peace. It certainly causes a lot of distress in life. I’ve been on both
ends….one who felt jealous or envious, and in recent months, one who has caused
others to feel jealous or envious of me. Neither end of the spectrum is a
pleasant or healthy place to be.
I thought a lot of about jealousy on my drive in to work
yesterday because it was very foggy, not like the brief, unexpected fog like I wrote
about last week, but a more wide-spread, very heavy fog. In fact, many of the
local schools were delayed and/or closed, but I arrived safely and all is well.
Last week, I left work and the sun was shining and the parking lot was dry. It
was a beautiful afternoon.Less than 3
miles down the road, however, it was pouring down rain.It wasn’t even supposed to rain at all that
day…and yet, here it was…pouring.Almost
as quickly as I drove into the rain, I drove out of it. It was literally like a
line….it was pouring on one side of the street and the sun was shining on the
other.The fog was kind of like that on
and off yesterday.It was clear and calm
and the sun was beginning to rise…and then….it was so foggy that I couldn’t see
in front of me….then it was completely clear again…and then foggy.The periods of fog grew longer but were
always followed by periods of clear, smooth sailing. Just odd Michigan weather….but
in a way….like life.But…the fog, and
also the weird rain situation last week, did cause me to ponder jealousy and to
take a closer look at my life.
Sometimes it seems like it is always RAINING (troubles, hardships,
sickness…whatever) in our life and the sun is always SHINING (financial
prosperity, good health, good looks, great kids, good education….whatever) on
others.WHY US?WHY THEM? Have you ever been in a situation
where you felt like you had a big cloud of darkness hanging over your
head?Maybe you wondered why “things
always happen to me” and “why can’t I EVER GET A BREAK” or “Come on, God, how
MUCH MORE do you think I can handle?”Perhaps
you’ve looked at your neighbors, friends, or family members and wondered….”what’s
so great about them; why does everything go well for them when I have to
struggle”.Someone is always richer,
prettier, smarter, healthier…SKINNIER.Why them and not me????Maybe you’ve
muttered… “yeah, sure, I’d have a great marriage or relationship too if my
spouse DID that…or treated me like that….or made that much money… OR whatever.”Maybe it’s your kids…. ‘sure, my kid would be
the smartest one in school if I didn’t have to go to work and sit and read to
them all day when they were little’ or “the only reason he/she is on the team
is because his/her grandmother is on the school board or they have more money or……”.You get the drift. Likely, we’ve all been
there at one time or another. Maybe we’re there now.
Maybe we are really jealous of those around us that seem to
be able to lose weight easier or faster than us. “Well…yeah, sure, they can afford
to go to a gym….or “did you see how much it costs for fruit and produce; all I can
afford is macaroni and cheese or Hamburger Helper”.Maybe you’ve thought, “I could lose weight
too if I didn’t have the GENES from my plump grandma or I didn’t have to cook
for my family.”That maybes are endless.Whatever the case, it’s easy to feel jealous
of others who are further along on the journey or appear to have an easier time
sticking to a plan. I’ve been jealous….many times….and have also had strained
relationships/friendships because of my situation now.I’ve even heard someone say that it isn’t “fair”
that God gave me this miracle and not them. Secretly, I’m sure there are some
that are even hoping/waiting for me to put the weight back on.Again…not a pleasant feeling…either end.
One of the biggest things that jealousy can do, other than
destroy relationships, is rob us of our joy. Sometimes we spend so much energy
focusing on “what others have that we don’t” that we fail to recognize all that
we DO have. It changes our mindset from one of gratitude to one of resentment
and can cripple us on our journey.I
wish I knew how to avoid that green-eyed monster, but just like all temptations
we face, it’s one that we have a choice about. It’s not easy….in fact, it’s
down-right hard….but if I/we truly want to be peaceful and enjoy wellness, I/we
must continually look around at all the blessings that are given to me on a
daily basis and learn to say, “THANK YOU GOD” for all things….even those periods
of intense fog/rain (troubles/hardships/struggles/sadness/temptation/sickness).
Or… I/we can pull off the side of the road in this journey called LIFE and just
sit and wallow in the rain or misery and do nothing, but if I/we choose to do
that, I/we’ll miss the sunshine that is lurking just up ahead.
What kind of day are you going to CHOOSE to have?Are you going to be grateful or envious?Are you going to keep forging ahead through
the fog and rain….or just sit and wallow in it. Today….I am going to strive for
gratitude. I put on clothes that I purchased at the Thrift Store….but they fit
and look good! I drove my 13 year old
car to work yesterday….but it started! I have to work at the “other campus” today……but
I have a job!I’m tired this morning….but
it’s FRIDAY and I have the weekend off. I ate boring oatmeal instead of a
cream-filled donut for breakfast…but it was nourishing and didn’t cause guilt.
My life isn’t perfect…..but it certainly is great to be alive!You may not be as thin…or as rich…or as
healthy…or as happy as you’d like to be……but hopefully you are making progress….and
you certainly aren’t as bad as you could be.Make it a great day everyone!